HAMSTER-.

2007-02-01T16:05:00.000-08:00

yeepee =]]
ytd nitex daddy pass miie a fone tuh let miie use ! iim sho happy .
iie put myui sim card inside dah fone . although dhere ish no prepaid inne it but its ok .
dah next day wen myui mum she wen duwn tuh supermarket , she simply bought a prepaid card foerh miie top up , she pass it tuh miie wen she reached hume . iim sho happy .
immediately after iie habe top up , iie called myui stead nd tok tuh him till nuw since 2 pm . he told miie dhat he miss miie alot nd was worried dhat sumethingy might habe happen tuh miie this few days wen iie nurt with him . he fall sick ! sho worried . everyday eat once oni nd just bread oni . every drinkin 3 tuh 4 bottles ofh beer . nd suffered from cold nd sore throat nd slightly fever nd cough . hais . laogong , iim sowwie dhat wen ue really nid miie iie cant be able tuh be with ue tuh tkc ofh ue . iim such a failure being a stead . hais . iie miss ue alots laogong .
from uer voice iie kan hear dhat this few days iie nurt bein wifh ue , ue are jusrt makin urselfh tuh suffer ! iie dhunch knoe whether anythingy will happen tuh miie inne this period ofh time . but even yesh , iie hope ue really kan tkc ofh urselfh . becus iie know even we are nurt together but no matter whad our hart ish still together . iie nid ue alot alot . but ue ? iim nurt shure ofh it at all . from dah day iie met ue , iie knew ue are guy dhat will brighten myui lyfhe nd walkin dah path wifh miie forever . why cant couples be together forever , kan oni became memories ! even iie habe forgotten ue , forgotten dah world ,iie os0h wurn be able tuh forget dah sweet memories iie habe with ue !!!!

My Last Wish `

2007-01-31T16:47:00.000-08:00

hais . tuday afternoon iie was left with myui niece at hume while myui mum went duwnstairs tuh get sume ingredients foerh dinner .
wen she came hume , iie start searchin foerh foods amount dah plastic bags .
nd iie found one envelop writing my name nd myui sku name on top .
as iie was about tuh take it nd check out whad is it , my mum snatch it awhile from miie .
sho iie dhunch kare sho much but iie knew it must be sumething wierd .
sho as my mother ish preparing food foerh dinner , iie wen in tuh dah room without her notice , iie search foerh dah envelop .
iie found it out ofh dah sudden in myui primary sku bag sho iie open it quietly nd jus slightly read it . it has a map on a piece ofh paper showin dah way tuh gho tuh juvenile court .
iie continue lookin at dah other paper nd iie realised was reports on miie this 1 year plus iim inne canberra secondary sku . nd iie slightly read it over .
iie notice dhat it was report dhat was supposed tuh be bought tuh juvenile court tuh send miie tuh girl's hume . iim nurt shure wifh it but slightly shud be ifh iim nurt wrong . iie just find it curious ofh this . probably they just dhunch wan miie tyuh know anythingy till dah day they send miie tuh attend dah juvenile court nd sentence tuh gerl's hume ???
iie dhunch know anythingy either . hais . even its sho , iie habe nothingy tuh say nd express any more . in case anythingy happen tuh miie . iie hope from tuday onwards , after this bloggie iie habe post . iie hope dhere will be sumeone kan help miie kip on call myui stead hus sayin lookin foerh ben nd help miie inform himdhat , iie did nurt ran away with another guy but just probably sumethingy might happen tuh miie . ifh this few months iie did nurt even wen tuh mit him up , iie hope dhat he will understand nd continue tuh wait foerh miie . ifh anyone willin tuh help , please tag miie nd i'll let ue knoe his hus number . thanks bery much cus this ish myui last wish before anythingy happen tuh miie .

2007-01-30T16:15:00.000-08:00

from 29th jan 2007 onwards .
hamster ish totally change ! she dhunch believe inne anybody anymore .
all she nid ish BenjamineChenWeiFeng .
dah one whu ish willin tuh drop 3 tears foerh hamster .
SharinaTangSiewLing SWEAR SHE LOVES BenjamineChenWeiFeng TILL SHE DIES <333
25.October.2006 - o539Am.x NEBER SAY ENDS NO MATTER WHAD !!
wen she ish being release from dah jail HOUSE !
she wurn be a hamster before , she wurn lie anymore .
nd she wurn care foerh anyone anymore but just dah HIM !
ish friends nd families make her becume inne this state , sho dhunch ever blame her !!!

2007-01-30T16:06:00.000-08:00

we habe broken up on 24th jan 2007 , patch on 25th jan tuh 28th jan 2007 [midnitex].
cus iie lied tuh him nd iie knew this was whad iie deserve .
on 24th jan 2007 , he found out all dah truth dhat iie habe lied tuh him .
we just broken up like dhat . from his eyes was 3 drops ofh tears fallin down tuh his faces .
becus he dhunch wanna break up . but he habe no choice .
but before he left he told miie dhat he ish gibing miie one months ofh time tuh change everything . nd he promise miie dhat he will definitely wait foerh dah day iie gho back tuh him nd said iie habe change ! nd ie promise him dhat iie will definitely change . nd before iie left , iie requested dhat iie hope he will be accompanyin miie foerh dah next day as it was supposed tuh be our 3 months anniversary .
25th jan 2007 , he came outside myui sku tuh fetch miie nd bring miie gho walk walk !!
he brought miie walkin ard nd we chat nd chat . foerh a sudden , iie held up his hand nd start tellin him dhat iie just cant afford tuh lose him . nd we patch up just like this . everyday we habe tuh hide here nd there tuh be together . ish sho tired foerh dah both ofh us .
28th jan 2007 , iie quarrelled wifh father nd he came up tuh ben hse tuh find miie , at midnitex .
myui father gave him a tight slap on his face . iie cried immediately foerh dhat slap . it really hurts . iie was dhen drag hume wifh myui dad pulliin myui hair here nd dhere . wen iie reach hume . myui dad gets chain tuh lock myui legs together . nd drag miie here nd dhere at hume . he told miie he ish gonna treat miie like a dog , but nurt a human being from dhat onwards .
he keep on kickin , slapin nd punchin miie all over my body nd he wen back tuh room tuh take a belt tuh beat miie all over a body . whole body ish bruises nd injuries . iie habe nothingys tuh express . they asked miie whether tuh choose tuh saty wifh family or benjamine . iie think twice nd iie choose benjamine at last . he ask miie again nd he warned miie that ifh iie choose benjamine again . he shall beat miie tuh death . butd iie choose benjamine at last . tuh covered everythingy by myuiselfh , iie gotten beaten everytimes he cumes out from rooms . he throw foods on the floor for miie tuh eat nd iie did nurt eat at all . even bath os0h cannurt take out dah chain . hais . all ish tuh make shure he wurn dho anythigny tuh benjamine from dhat onwards . iim like a dog stayin at home wifhout any freedom . but iie dhunch mind ifh this ish tuh make shure nothingy bad will happen tuh benjamine . although iie cant get tuh him at all but iim shure the time he ish at home nd iie nurt dhere means nothingy bad will happen . probably he ish happy outside wen iim sufferein at all but its ok . iie dhunch mind . iie just hope dhat he will be happy dhats all . ifh iie knoe he ish happy outside iie will be happy too !!! probably this ish dah first time ii willin tuh sacrifice sho much foerh a guy iie just habe a relationship wifh him foerh 3 months . but iie knw why iim willin just becus ofh dah 3 drops ofh tears from his eyes !!! although iim missin him everyday , butd dheres nothingy iie kan dho . just lookin at dah xiao zhuzhu he boughty foerh miie every day nitex . nd quietly cryin thru out days nd days . ben ; iie will definitely be back tuh find miie ! hope ue will be waitin !!!! sharina love benjamine <33

BYEBYE HOLIDAYS !!!

2007-01-02T22:50:00.000-08:00

sho fast ! 2 months ofh holiday just pass like dhat . every day staying at myui sia0eh hus . dhoing nothingy . hahas . butd feels bery happy bein wifh him . mwarhs ! 25october2006 ! iie loorfe ue laogong . tomorrow start sku lerhs . sianx . nitex nitex .

BIRTHDAY SARKS !

2006-12-08T06:38:00.000-08:00

birthday ? nurt happy at all . no sisterhs specially arrived .

stead ? scolded nd quarrelled wifh miie . hais ! iie dhunch even kn0e iie open this b'day party foerh whadd ? nurt even enjoying myui selfh at all . hais .

whad habe iie been dhoin foerh myui bday ? prepared sho much food nd events foerh fwends . butd none ofh those special nd important arrived . myui worse bdae ever inne myui lyfe ! nd unexpectable quarrelled wifh dah closest on dhat day . he kept scoldin nd scoldin . iie cried nd ran away . he ish dah closest already . butd yet he treated miie like this . iie really habe nothingy more tuh express from myuiselfh !

IM A FCUKIN BICTH !

2006-11-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

HAIS . whad dah fcuk iie dhoin nuwadas ?

kind ofh fcukin thinkin nd action done by miie .

iie failed tuh be a perfect stead .

forgive myuiselfh foerh dhoin all this ish impossible de lurhs .

although ish holiday already , kan gho out nd play le .

butd having sho much thingys hide inne myui hart

dho iie still habe dah mood tuh play ard ?

iie dhunch think sho . although iie knoe there ish many fwends round miie

making myui life remains happy every day .

although iie look happy actually iie nurt at all nurhs .

iie just wanna hide inne dah darkness where no one ish dhere nd no one kan find miie .

iie wanna cry out loud tuh let euu knoe .

butd even iie dho will euu really kares ?

totally no time tuh blog at all till tuday .

every accompanyin euu here nd dhere nd at euur hus .

iie dhunch mind . butd iie really hope dhat sum times euu really kan understand miie more .

iie hope euu kan love miie more dhen iie dho .

cus iie really loorve dhat much dhat it cant be describe any more .

kan we put away all our "xin shi" nd concentrate on this relationship which iie really willin tuh last nd treasure it ???

iie wanna leave butd dho iie bear tuh ? iie dhunch think sho at all !

2006-10-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

jus woke up . feelin sho tired .

where iim ghoin tuh gho next ? tuah or hume ?

shad argh !!! iie finally realised yinqx nd gina ish myui most relyable fwend le .

although sume times might quarrel wifh each other nd gib attitude .

butd we wurn lie tuh each other !

sisterhs dhunch lie , ifh sisterhs lie are nurt sisterhs .

oni they pei miie all this day before myui court day .

iie love them llotas .

birthday cuming nearer nd nearer .

whu kan actually able tuh pei miie celebrate wifh miie ?

hais .

openein chalet at sentosa on 7 dec tuh 9 dec 3d 2n .

those whu wanna cume , iie welcume !

RONGYING . REGINA . YANGYIN . HUIJUN . MANAGER . AHBOI . JAC . HOWARD . ZHENHAO . AMELIA . JASLIN . JIAWEI . SHAERMAN . KENNETH . YENPING . YENCHENG . FRANCESCA

all DEFINITELY MUST cume !!!!!!

whu dhunch cume iie kill whu .

at this moment ! hahas .

rongying still sleepin . whad dah !

she zhu tou larhs her . hahas .

lta at nitex dhen blog again !

2006-10-19T04:34:00.000-07:00

hais . nuwadas everyday gho sku BUTD everyday tio suspended .

dhunch knoe iie still gho sku foerh whad ?

tuday tio suspend again . ash usual !

zhenhao korkor ` choonann nd howard dear tiio too .

hahas .

all bii quack =X dhey gho skip detention .

dhen at last tuday gurt caught inne dah mornin assembly .

suspended till 9 plus dhen wen foerh caning .

1 stroke . hurt x3

PAIN PAIN PAIN !!!

dhen howard nd choonann wen back class dhen left korkor .

korkor hair too long get caught ` tootpidde .

wakakakakaka .

cut already like WHAD ???

pei miie chat chat chat .

walkin here nd there untill sku dismissed .

tok bout many many thingy nurhs .

hais . iie will os0h think over whad he told miie lurhs .

no matter foerh whuse sake , iie habe tuh make a final decision .

sho its betta tuh make up dah decision earlier dhen lettin it drag nd drag at last will be hurt more .

dhunch feel like ghoing any where any more ,

tomorrow sku holiday till next wed dhen nid gho sku .

everybody kan relax nd gho enjoy ard .

butd hais .

saturday need tuh attent court .

dhunch knoe whad will happen dhat day .

ifh anythingy happen tuh happens , iie jus hope dhat wen laogong cume out will guaiguai dhunch dho wrong thingy lerhhs . everybody dhunch need worry bout miie nurhs . hmm . os0h hope dhat tuah kan sun sun li li get thru everythingy nd peace foerh dhat period . nd nothingy happen tuh uncle nd tuah members . ji wang gong pah buay toh ~

nothingy will happen tuh miie de .

although iie myuiselfh ish worry too . but iie habe confident too !

no matter whad . everybody must tkc ifh anythingy happen tuh miie !

BACK TUH BL0GGIE !!!! S0WWIE GUYS !!!!!!!!

2006-10-14T04:22:00.000-07:00

iim back tuh myui bl0ggie !

yos everyone .

ever since july im preparing foerh myui exam .

dhen no time tuh update nurhs .

dhenn exam finish lerhhs .

butd during this short period ofh time many thingy happens .

make miie totally no mood tuh blog at all nurhs .

hais .

tired arhs .

almost every day at tuah .

dhenn laogong . . . .

sume thingy happen nurhs .

just dhunch wanna say nd express out myui feelings .

no one will ever understand huw iim feelin every day .

just wanna leave dah world like dhat butd iie suddenly realised dhere still always sume one carin nd worryin bout miie .

shud iie continue studyin nurt ?

hais . every day gho sku see dah fcukin cher face .

waste myui time nurhs .

just wanna fcukin leave this fcukin idoitic sku !

butd iie once promyshhe him iie wurn quit sku nurhs .

although iim nurt use tuh dah life wifhout him !

butd iie strong .

nd iim waiting everyday every min every seconds .

no matter huw iie long iie will still wait .

butd will he still remember wen he cumes out ?

iie really hope he will .

probably by nuw dhenn ii realised .

wen he ish wifh miie iie did nurt cherish nd treasure it .

nd wen he ish nurt ard anymore dhenn realised huw much iie actually nid him .

rongying . yangyin . regina . jiawei . jaslin . amelia . howard . kenneth . ahben . ahboi . jon nd huijun !

thanks sho muach foerhh companyin miie tish period as he ish nurt ard wifh miie .

all day accompanyin miiee nd encouragin miie nurt tuh gibbe up myui life nd habe confident inne myuiself dhat wen he cumes out he will definitely still remember miie !!!

2006-07-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

hais . sho many thingy happen !

huw i hope we kan be like last time .

just happily wifhh our own life .

nd dhunch nid tuh kare boutt whad other people whud say .

why kan we dho dhat inne dah past butd nurt now ?

ish im dah one whu change or euu ?

euu will still rmb tuh visit mui bl0ggie every time eu are free .

butd nuw . no more le . really no more le .

whad happen ? are euu still dah jieyong that i first knew .

or sumone else ? please .

dhunch dho all this tuh euurselfh .

makin euu euur own selfhh tuh be stress nd tired over small matters .

dah one i love ish dah jieyong dhat i first knew .

nurt nuw de jieyong .

sumeone dhat ish bery fierce nd sumeone whu dhunch kare bout huw people feels .

i knew dhat dah old jieyong will be back .

butd kann euu guys tell miie .

whad habbe make him tuh leave inne dah startin .

or ish im dah one whu change ?

i knew i habbe totally change ,

where ish last time de hamster .

a gerl dhat knew huw tuh think .

sumone dhat ishh willin tuh listen tuh everything he say.

where ish she ?

wen will last time de hamster nd jieyong cume back .

a perfect couple ash end up in this state . what habbe actually happen btwn them ?

does any body knoe whad dah both ofh them ish thinkin bout ?

hais . hais . hais .

although she hate butd she still love him llotass .

2006-07-02T22:24:00.001-07:00

zhiyen =((

where euu ?

miie nidds euu llotoaSs .

hais . euu kn0e whad happen nuw anurt ?

where are euu ?

dho0 eu still rmb miie ?

7 years ofh sistar ship .

habe euu totally forgetten miie or whadd ?

cries .

i dhunch kn0e whad happen tuh euu nurhhs .

find ways tuh c0ntact miie asap kkeaSs .

or euu call m0ii mummy or m0ii jiejie dhey all tuh lo0k f0erhh miie ok marhhs .

i wan tuh kn0e whad exactly happen .

miie gurt pr0b euu first one help .

butd dhenn euu gurt pr0b i dhunch kn0e any thingy .

s0wwie .

2006-07-02T22:14:00.000-07:00

sianx . sku reopen lerhhs .

cannurtt ton liaos .

butd still hack care . ytd ton at deardeaer hus .

wait foerhh him cume back from lion dance .

see him sho tired .

hartt br0kenn nurhhs .

butd kant dho0 any thingy .

miie to0tpidde nurhhs .

laogong wansui !

dhenn even co0k thingy foerhh him tuh eat .

butd dhenn .

i think it taste awfull barhhs .

ifhh nurtt why he even try os0h dhunch wanna try .

omg !

ish m0ii co0kinn skill really dhatt bad .

must i really gho learn huw tuh co0k f0erhh dah sake ofhh him ?

hahas .

pr0bably yesh barhhs !

no0 ch0ice .

2006-06-19T01:16:00.000-07:00

hahas . 3 days being wifhh him .
neber gho0 hume . sho0 happy .
i enjoy m0iselfhh ll0tass . although running here nd dhere .
its tiring butd its fun nurhhs . hahas .
it will be inne m0ii mind nd became mem0ries nd will remain inne m0i mind f0erhh lfhe

just only reach hume nurhhs . dh0in nth nurhhs .
myshhe him alth0ugh jus only leave him nehhs !
pr0bably i lo0rfe him to0 muchh le barhhs . hahas .
o1o3o6 neber end . everlasting relati0nship .

2006-06-19T01:06:00.000-07:00

5am slp . 7am wake upp .

prepare thingy dhenn gho out lerhhs !

wen tuhh wenbin hus find m0ii ba0beiis laogong .

dhenn slp till b0uut 12 pm dhenn gho0 out .

we wen tuh his hus . dhenn slp again . dhen wen tuh amk tgt .

dhenn t0n outside . till 5 am + . sho0 funn nehhs .

dhenn gho his hus slp . till next day 3pm + .

dhenn prepare thingy dhenn gho0 aljunied wifhh wenbin / khengweePAPA nd deardear .

we wentt tuhh see a sai guan , ahahs .

dhenn went tuh eat nearby dhenn wen tuh sbw . dhenn all gho hume .

dhenn i wen tuh deardear hus tuh orhorh . dhen afternoon he wen out first .

dhenn i mit him at sbw mrt . cus i slp awhile more at his hus .

dhenn wen tuh sbw mrt . tgt we take mrt tuh amk again .

find alvin . dhenn soon papa . xuelian . andrew . wenbin came .

dhenn miie . deardear . alvin nd dexing went tuh whampoa tgt tuh sell otah !

dhenn nite . we wen back tuh sbw dhenn i gho deardear hus take moi thingy .

dhenn i wen hume lerhhs !

2006-05-21T22:55:00.000-07:00

hais ! fuckinn hell *

kanna beat up by cousin / sister / mummy !

nurtt muchh bruises larhs ..

but dhey pull my hair . pull my ear . slap mi . punch mi . kick mi .

tak my head knock against dah floor ! i dhunno whether dhey treat mi ash one of dah family

member anotts lorh !

took my handfonne away . i neber say any thg lorhs .

still hao yi shi use my handfonne tuh keep callinn her husband .. waste my handfonne $

kaninabei chao cheebye ! pua cheebye la !

dah moment dhey told mi from nuw on

no need gho out . no hp . even sku osoh no need tuh gho !

dah first one i thought ofhhe ish zhuzhuLAOGONG lerhs ..

thinnkinn dhatt issit really frm dhatt tyme onwards

i dhun gertt tuh see him again .. tuh be wifhhe him .. playinn happily !

all those happy moments i spended wiffh him .. gerts intuh memories ?

laogong .. i really bery bery myshhe you ! mwarkSs ..

ath laogong hus ( shes sad )

2006-05-20T17:46:00.000-07:00

hais ! again ... dhunn knoe whadd hes thinnkinnq bout ..

bery bery de worriedd bout him lorhs ..

bery bery hope dhatt he whud kindly tell miie whadd actually hes thinnkiin bout !

i shed dah most tears ferhhe him ..

probably i truly loorfe him .. im nurtt wrong tysh tyme ?

i dhunn knoe wadd im dhoing lorhs ..

he every tyme say i wurnn serious inne any thg .. every tyme dhoing wadd osoh play !

bery xiao hai zi .. hais ! butd dhenn im nurtt a child any more lerhs !

i cried nd cried ferhhe him but dho he understand ?

m i dah one whu chnage or ish he dah one whu change ? i dhunno at all !

he adores he care he treat miie well ... he once told miie he loorfe mii !

butd ish dah feeling still dhere nuw ? i hope sho !

i dhunno huww tuh express huw i thinnk tuh him .. or tuh any one !

butd juss blogging nd blogging ..

really really need him llotass ..

m i still dah humble and understanding hamster ?

or have i becum a crazy and a person dhatt ishh nurtt understanding at all ?

i dhunno .. i dhunno .. i dhunno !

im ghoing crazy bery soon .. i dhunno whadd im ghoing tuh dho next lorhs .. hais !

will i habe a chance tuh change back tuh last tyme de hamster ?

i dhunno at all lorhs !

i hope he realli care .. i really need him lors !

hais ! will i really change ferhhe him ... dah 0ni him ???

i really really dho loorfe him llotass ... really hope he kan kindly understand larhs !

i dhunno wadds im dhoing nuw .. butd jus kip on typin nd typing ..

hope kan be wifhhe him ferhhe dah rest on my life norhs ..

will he understand even i express huww ish my feeling like tuh him ? i dhunno lorhs !

really hope he will ... i dhunno whadd tuh say tuh him ..

every tyme wan tuh say things tuhhim every tyme mus think already dhenn kan say ..

i will owass think before i say .. scare say any thg wrong again ?

every body round miie will knoe i habe nebr been sho serious inne a guy be4 ..

wenever during quarrel i wurnn fight back ..

during he say any thg bad bout miie i neber gib face tuh him ..

hais !! really hope dhatt he will finally knoe whadd actually i habe owass been thinnkin bout nd whadd i trying tuh express tuh him !!!

2006-05-20T15:00:00.000-07:00

sho happy !

finally kan mit laogong lerhs ! sho damn happy lorhs ...

i really bery bery myshhe him lorhs ..

although ish jus 1 day nber be wifh him ..

mwarkSs .. laogong wo ai si ni le larhs /-

nuw ath laogong hus blogging larhs ..

heesx ..

fuckingg day !

2006-05-19T21:52:00.000-07:00

hais ! tuday morning actually ghoing sku ..

butd end up my uni being burn up by moii mum !

hais .. dhunn knoe wadd she actually wann lorhs ..

i only told her dhatt i will be ghoing sku late butd no amtter whadd i will gho tuh sku ..

butd dhenn i dhunn knoe whadd dah fucking thing she wan mi tuh dho larhs !

she took my uni gho burn i neber say any thg lorhs .. yet she took away my hp lorhs !

lim bu gan dulan lorhs .. ccb *

dhenn i wenn tuh snatchh fromm her nd kanna one slap from her ..

hais .. actually im fighting back de .. butd i promyshhe laogong cannurt fight back le ..

no choice lorh .. let her tak nd gho intuh dah room jus like dhatt ..

criedd dah whole morning ..

canurtt gho out / no hp ! huww m i gonna survive in tysh way ?

OH MY GOD ...

i myshhe moii laogong bery dah much lor ..

yet he cant gertt tuh contact mii nd i cant gertt tuh contact him too ..

miie bery bery sad lorhs ...

feel like dieing .. butd i mus live on ferhhe nobody butd juss him !

i really deeply fall in loorfe wifh him lerhs .. cant be control by muiiselfhhe anymore !

645 pm .. i dhunn care ... i told jasmineBESTIE thru msn ;

tuh help mi call my laogong hp nd wake moii laogong upp ferhhe work

nd sun bian ask moii laogong call my mum hp say looking ferhh mii ..

laogong call mii lerhs .. sho happy tuh hear his voice ... bery fast he hang up lerhs !

butd he online jus tuh chat wid mi nd almost lata ferhhe work wors !

he bery bery gurdd lorhs .. zhuzhu wo ai si ni le !

laogong der hp butd moii reflection -. (ps)

2006-05-19T19:10:00.000-07:00

iloorveyongyong <33

2006-05-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

wenn out widd zhuzhuLA0G0NG ( ps )

2006-05-19T07:02:00.000-07:00

2006-04-15T15:13:00.000-07:00

ytd wenn partyworldd nurhs .

widd fwens . sisterhh nd laogong !

sho happy lurhs /-

sing song sing song .

i really enjoyedd moiiselfhe dhere ~

iloorfwethem ! iniddthem !

2006-04-08T22:19:00.000-07:00

hais .

tudae went tuh report ath cantonment nurhs -

sianx *

ndd all dey say wass " wait ferhhe the letter tuh sendd tuh ew "

bery fuck lurhs !

waste my own swiit tyme

all the way frm MARSILING gho till OUTRAM PARK ~

nabei chao cheebye .

dhenn hang out widd my dear ndd fwens `

moii baobeiis laoqonqq wen vista tuh cut hair !

bery nice nurhs . sho jealous ` hahaha #

he becum more ndd more handsum lurhs ^^

scare he runn away * butd i trustt him !

. laoqonqq - i loo rfe yoo .

2006-04-01T14:45:00.000-08:00

DEAR ; MESSAGE SPECIALLY TUH EW !

all the way crying !!

gortt beaten up by my da jiejie *

fucking ass hole . . .

nabei cheebye #

today ish the 1 mth ofhhe mi nd ew !

cant get tuh celebrate widd ew =((

cry like hell norhs . . .

the celebration ofhhe our 1 mth jus pass like datt . . .

dear ; im sowwie datt ferhhe this period ofhhe tyme i did sho many thgs tuh make ew worriedd ! dear i dho loorfe eww llotas * i really cant affordd tuh lose ew - all the while ew have been by my syde supporting mi on doing anythg ! nd now 1 mth i cant get tuh celebrate this day widd ew ! dui bu qi !! ! !!wo ai si ni lerhx -

i try getting out butd i cant ash i quarrel nd get into a fight ! dhenn second sister call police # poilice told mi on fonne tuh tkkeas [ bao zhong ]

next saturday report tuh cantonment dhenn see whether gortt gho gerls hme . or i any tyme i will gho into gerls hme ! dear bery bery bery sowwie ! i dhunnw ann this tuh happen ! my whole body wass widd bruises . . . beaten up by my sister ! hais . . .

ifhhe realy i gho in i really hope ew will 4get boutt mi nd find a betta gerl nd hab a new start wid " her ?"

while typing i was crying !

dear i noe ew owass scold mi wen i dho sum thg wrong i noe ew wan mi change nortt meant tuh scold mii ! i really really understand !! evr since i noe ew i oready realisedd loorfing ew ish nortt sumthg i hsbb done wrong . . .nd this feeling will follo mi forvever ! i hab no regrets loorfing nd being wid ew * im bery happy being wid ew ! ew habe neber make mi felt sad cus ofhhe ew before . . .

iim going crazy lr dear . . .ifhhe any thg bad happen tuh mii ! really sowwie !!!!!

tkkeass ofhhe kennyKOR ' shamtengMAMA ' khengweePAPA ' hanweiKORKOR ' goldfish ' jianming ' meifeng ' sunplaza ppl datt noe mii ' sku ppl datt noe mii ' nd MOST IMPORTANT - YURSELFHHE !!! ew sick will be bery worse lerx . . . rest more * dhun owas run here run dere # ifhhe sick mus rest more drink more water slp more - slp mus cover blanket dhunn on aircon even wan on dhun on too big . ew shd knw yur hus de aircon bery cold de . . .lata flu huws ? ew will owass be in my hartt !! no body kan replacedd ew !

LAOGONG ; HAMSTER AI NI 1314 3344 184 !!!!

2006-03-31T01:46:00.000-08:00

MESSAGES OUT BY HAMSTER ;

jieyongLAOGONG ; dear * dhunn owas make miie worriedd hao ma ? tkkeass ofhhe yur own body kkeass ? dhunn try tuhh leave mii ! cus i will hold on tuh yur hands tightli nd nebr let it gho !!! laogong - WOAINI 1314 ]]

hanweiKOR ; dhunn thkk too muachh hao marhs ? ifhhe she truly loo rfe ew i believe dat she one day sure will get touchhe by ew nd totally gib up on him derx lorhs !

meifengSISTERHHS ; thk it thru . . . hu dho ew really truly loo rfe ? follo yur feelinggs ! hope ew really kan set down yur mind nd thk it thru nd make every thg clear ! after making the choice - it will be too late tuh regret !

khengweePAPA ; thk before ew make the final decision wors . . gibb her one more chance hao marhs ? mama treat nuer bery gurdd larhs papa . . . trust in her ferhhe the on nd only last chance ke bu ke yi ? bu yao fang qi ta !!! i dhunn wann lose her this mama *

shamtengMAMA ; try tuh treat papa betta kekass ? dhunn let him disappoint on ew nd totally gib up all the trust nd confidence on ew ! prove it tuh him datt ew earn his confidence nd trust again ! i dhunn wann tuh lose ew this mama lorhs . . .

goldfishhFWENX ; haiyohs . . . dhunn owass quarrel widd hiedikia over small matter ke yi marhs ? evry thg nd every words ew say please thk before ew say nd thk before ew dho ! lata say le dhenn realisedd say or dho sumthg wrong * too late tuh regret lerhx !

kailingMEI ; guaiguai hohs mei . . . dhunn find trouble kekass ! ifhhe ppl gho find ew trouble try tuh avoidd kkeass # ifhhe still cant gertt tuh avoid call mi or my laogong kekas ! i loo rfe meimei _.

celesteMEI ; free rmb jiio mi out hohx ~ studying in sku still fine marhs ? seldom see ew in SP lerhx ! whr been ew been ? staying at hme or diao other place le ? tkkeass worx . . . i loo rfe ew __.

kennyKOR ; rest at hme bahs kor . dhunn thk too muachhe ler ! its nortt worth it at all norhs # tkkeass worx * meimei owass behindd supporting ew no matter in doingg any thg ^^

lindaSISTERHHS ; dhunn be sho crazy ler la . . . i msyhhe ew llotas ! study more hard hard kekass !

karminMEI ; jiejie hope ew nd shaun kan last this relationship * dho cherishhe him !

shaunKOR ; meimei wishhe ew nd karminMEI aka DASAO last long long wors . treasure her kkeass /- ew dare bully her i nd ew BO SUA !!!

jowenaDARLINKK ; work harder larhs darlinkk . dhunn owass gho out dhenn neberr study still kan tell mii wan drop tuh techhnical dhenn after sec 4 study ITE ! lame norhs ew . . .

yenpinggSISTERHHS ; temper change abit larhs . free jiio mi out hohs * change style lerhs marhs ? or still remain ash gothic style ?

sereneSISTERHHS ; cannortt play lerhx larhs ! its tyme ferhhe studying lerh # next yr sec 3 lerhx . this yr dhunn study hardd ew no nidd tuh promote tuh sec 3 lerx ! i loo rfe serene llotas *]]

eugeneKOR ; thanx ferhhe yur help all the while wen i nidd ew ! faster findd stead le larhs !! korkor ; mei loo rfe ew llotas * ifhhe kan find stead lerhx dhenn mus cherishhe my future DASAO hohx . . .

2006-03-31T01:05:00.000-08:00

IM BCK TUH BLOGGY !!!!!!!!!!!!

i myshhe every bodyy llotas /-

sowwie guys . . .

nowadas habb tuh company my stead dhen dho nth ((=

dhenn no more tyme tuh blog lerhx nehs *

butd any way im bck again lerhx #

2006-03-24T22:54:00.000-08:00

outsyde sku wid my laqonqq ~~

2006-03-18T04:56:00.000-08:00

OUCH !!!! whole body was sho pain norhs -.

spendd the whole ntye blogging ` making my dear profile ` nd editing fotos !

sianx wors ... myshhe my dear sho muachhe !!

i loo rfe himm llots nehs .-

2006-03-18T04:53:00.000-08:00

17/03/06

again bck tuhh piinqqx hse . . .

we kyp changinq clothes tuh tak gothic fotos /-

heesx . datt wass funn nehs -

play play play . . . eat eat eat . . . chat chat chat . . . play play play

sho fast 8.00 pm (=)

i complete wadd im dowinqq nd left yp hus at 8.10 pm sharpp !~!

nortt enough tyme tuh post the left fotos . . .

wenn tuh the nearest taxi stand tuh held a taxi nd wenn towards yishun 110 angkonq shop . . .

i was thr at thr wid mama [ shamteng ] ` papa [ khengwee ] ` goldfishhe ` linda ` jianminq *

wenn eating denn left yishun nd wenn tuhh sembawang 332 derx playground tuh wait ferhh jieyong nd kenny nd shaun tuh arrivedd . . .

while wating ferhhe jieyongnd shaun tuh arrivedd ; kennyKOR arrivedd firstt .

denn ash soon ash jieyong nd shaun arrivedd lerhs !

sho sad tuh see datt jus ash jieyong arrivedd he vomitedd . . .

sayang wors ( dear ) ! denn realisedd datt he wenn drinkinqq ....

argh !!! ANGRYY __.

he wenn siting down at the playgroundd tuhh restt norhs .

( msq tuh dear ) [=] dunn owass drink wors . its bad ferhhe yur health [=]

awhile more . . . mama nidd tuh gho hme . . .sho papa ` jianming ` shaun ` goldfishhe wen sending her hme .

denn left mii ` jieyong nd kennyKOR at the playgroundd .

i wass sitting jus rtye besyde jieyong yet kennyKOR wass alone standinqq sho far away frm us !

just a few mins after papa dey all left , kennyKOR walk away nd left alone .

nd the playground wass left widd jieyong nd mii two person .

suddenly ; linming called jieyong using shaun fonne tuh inform ush tuh gho tuh 476 the mama shop -

denn i nd jieyong left the playground nd slowli walk tuh 476 .

at 476 , kennyKOR quarrelledd widd papa dey all thru tokinq on fonne !

haishs * sad sad - [=] dhunn owass quarrell larhs ew all [=]

denn we wenn tuhh 406 coffee shop datt ishh jus opposyte 476 .

jieyong wenn eating nd drinking water . sho we all waitedd ferhhe him .

denn shaun nd linming left ; denn papa nd jianming left ; denn mii nd jieyong left !

I WENN TUH JIEYONG HSE !~!

denn slp nd slp nd slp .

the next day morininq wenn hme ..

this was post on 18/03/06 derx midntye !

2006-03-17T20:04:00.000-08:00

at pinqqpinqqx hus tak derx . . . crazy hamster *

2006-03-17T19:45:00.000-08:00

i loo rfe piinqqpiinqqx ! wo bu neng mei you ni ^^

i myshhe ew jieyonq [ LAOGONG <3>

CATS ; linqqs * piinqqx

copyrytedd ; hamster * yenpiinqx <>

2006-03-17T19:41:00.000-08:00

stewpidde face taken at piinqqpiinqqx hus wors *

2006-03-17T07:49:00.000-08:00

gothic style *]] linqqlinqqs hartts piinqqpiinqqx ( mWarkSs )

2006-03-16T19:25:00.000-08:00

heesx . . . bck tuh piinqqx lerhs -

sho happy nehs /-

cum tuu her hse . . .

denn make my hair denn gho downstairs buy bubble tea wors !

ALAMAK ! mak moii clothes dirty nehs ~

WTF >>> wadd e fCuk ?

shoiie wenn bckk tuhh yp hus tuu change a tshirt /-

denn wenn down tuu 178 bbl court tuu play ; no more gud fwens lerhs

left wifhhe guys playing bbl down dere at the court . . .

although we noe them butd dey're nortt the ones datt're ash close ash those gerls datt wass dere tuu hang roundd playing bbl cheerfully ; sad sad !

how i hope it will return tuhh e past . . .

how i ; yp ; fwens playing happily . . .

butd datt will nebr eva happen again lerhs /-

memories are owas juss memories __.

wadd happen in the past ish oreadyy past lerhs . . .

unless everybody truly believe datt dere ish miracle in this whole world ;

denn maybe really the past thqs datt habb oreadyy happen will get tuhh happen now again ... butd its truly beryy beryy difficult = TOALLY DIFFICULT !!!!!!!

mii ndd yp habb no face tuhh walk down tuhh the bbl court . . .

ash we habb jus left 178 ferhhe quite a long tyme and now suddenlyy cum bck ...

its lykk shoiie wierdd norhs /-

butd sudenly dey wennt tokingg tuhh us ...

at datt moment denn we realisedd datt dey still rmb ush ; still treat ush ash gud fwens ash before ...

miie nd yp wennt tuu e mama shopp tuh buy the cup noodles tuhh eat ...

nd start toking boutt the past thgs dat habb happen at 178 nd thgs dat habb happen during the period ofhhe tyme wenn we two were myshhinqq frm 178 !!

after eating ... we wennt up bck tuhh yp hse .. tuhh tak fotos by using my handfonne ... chating widd fwens ... eat slpinqq ...